Black Pearl

Assalamualaikum, Sedar tak sedar, dah habis present result & poster fyp pun. Tak percaya nak dekat setahun aku hadap macam2 daripada perang dingin dengan fyp mate, sampai ke kena buli dengan orang atas (side note: bukan supervisor saya. SV saya baik hokayy).  Me being Hannysa, I was mad nervous before the final presentation. Cold hands, cold feet, you name it. Semuanya ada. Trembling masa pakai tudung pagi nak present tu. Ya Allah, teruk beno. Macam nak pergi hukuman gantung padahal nak present je.  I was the second presenter that day, actually, among the 32 of us. Sebab our schedule got messed up since Khamis Jumaat cuti sebab PRU hari tu. Patut present Jumaat, tapi terpaksa anjak ke hari Rabu. When I think about it, it was actually a blessing, giving me more time to prepare. I may have not be as prepared kalau buat as planned originally.  I could feel my voice trembling a bit. Nak aje baca laju2 sebab takut exceed 15 minit, tapi sebab the first pr...

Assalamualaikum, So, I am back at home for Kak Long's engagement and also, PRU. I am eligible to vote for the first time ever tomorrow. My gals are currently discussing about the pros and cons of each party dalam Whatsapp haha. Don't worry, it's a very civilized discussion.We don't fight with each other over something as petty as opinion differences, especially not about this issue xD Of course, I am having inner turmoil jugak nak pilih siapa untuk diundi. Honestly, no one is perfect. So, ultimately, I just need to vote for those yang may be the better leader, which is not an easy choice sebab aku tak kenal sangat pun calon2 kat sini. The last person ever yang aku ingat as a public figure in Kulai is Ong Ka Ting. Tu tahun bila entah.  Sebenarnya kena ambil port jugak, sebab we're talking about masa depan negara, tapi I find politics to be very full of dishonesty and taktik kotor. So, I try my best not to corrupt my mind dengan any of these stuffs. Lol...

Assalamualaikum, Sem 6. Nak habis dah pun. Lepas ni start LI. Tapi sebelum tu, serabut dulu dengan FYP. Sumpah. Setiap stage cabaran lain2. Sekarang dah kat stage nak analyse. Apa cabaran? 1. Dr nak suruh siapkan dalam seminggu je sebab nak hantar abstract pergi conference. 2. Nak kena analyse scoring instrument yang sangat baru in which tak banyak rujukan. So, I need to search for people yang reti guna. Problem is, memang ada student master yang tengah buat M-HEI & FFQ, tapi dia pun tak sure pasal banyak benda. We are both still learning this thing. 3. Partner FYP aku kat Vietnam sekarang. Mobiliti kat sana. Terkapai-kapai aku kat sini sorang-sorang nak fahamkan semua benda. I should get extra credit kot aihh. 4. I need to study for my midterm naik cuti ni. Also, ada presentation minggu lepas cuti. Awal cuti hari tu aku pergi Cameron Highlands. Pergi Jumaat, Sabtu dah balik. A short, sweet escape dengan my girls from PALAM. Ateng, Adaa & Izzah. Gila...

Assalamualaikum,  Semester 5 : DONE. I mean, I say this every time but it is hard to believe how fast time flies. Tengoklah aku kat mana sekarang. Dah habis semester 5 pun. 3 semester je lagi. Actually, 1 semester of learning. Lagi remaining 2 sem aku praktikal. See? I told you. It is crazy. Cuti sebulan ni aku banyak duduk kat kolej je. Data collection for my fyp. Walaupun sebenarnya takdelah hari-hari collect data.  I enrolled in a class that I have been wanting to enroll since forever. Dari second year kot aku nak join tapi tak menyempat sebab busy sangat time tu. I finally have the time. Fuhh, well wish me luck! Being alone does give me a perspective about myself. I reflected more. What I want versus what I need. What I should or should not do. How to be more mature and not act like I'm some kind of an angsty teenager. A LOT of perspective. Hey, find some time for yourself. You would be surprised of what you will find out. 

Assalamualaikum, I forgot that I have always updated this blog every study week. Patutlah tiba-tiba felt an urge to update. Sebab bila kau dah jadikan habit, ada biological clock yang akan ingatkan kau yang kau kena buat habit kau tu. So, kali ni punya final exam ada 4 paper je. Je. Apa kau fikir 4 paper tu, sebab sikit, senang? Haha. Tak. Added to the fact 3 paper 2 hari berturut-turut, lepas tu gap 10 hari nak sampai last paper. Hah, amik. Study lah sampai muntah xD Tapi sebab last paper tu MNT, aku terima dengan hati terbuka. Banyak weh nak kena master untuk subjek tu. Try to look at the positive side ni. 3 hari aku jimba tak pegang lecture notes. Tapi I am satisfied with my progress by far. Sebab the 4th day tu, I finished reading all the lecture notes for Nutrition Counselling. A bit of a challenge to divide my time for settling my FYP chapters yang kena hantar by 29 December (which is esok) & study for finals jugak.   Sekejap je dah n...

Assalamualaikum, I am currently stalling. Kerja banyak sangat sampai tak tahu nak capai yang mana dulu. Kerja apa? -3 jenis presentation Foodservice -FYP proposal slides -FYP chapter 2 & 3 -Study MNT- test Jumaat ni -Plan a visit to welfare house -Plan untuk masak Hipster Cafe next week -Practice untuk Nutrition Counseling So, I came to you lah bloggie. Sepanjang sem 1 third year ni rasa okay je lagi. Tiba2 nak habis sem, semua benda langgar aku one by one. Tak sempat nak ambil nafas, kena langgar lagi. Gila kalau cakap aku tak pernah persoalkan kebolehan aku. Bodoh. Kadang2 rasa macam tu. Betul ke ada potensi? Ke memang tu kata-kata penyedap hati? Mungkin kena ingat balik kenapa kau kat sini. Niat kau. Betulkan balik. Jangan rasa terbeban, asyik mengeluh. Padahal kau yang nak sangat course ni. Ingat balik macam mana susah kau datang sini semata-mata nak pergi interview belajar kat sini. Berapa ramai yang tak diterima, kau pulak lemah longlai mac...

Assalamualaikum, This is a sad post. If you do not wish to be sad, do stop reading. If you are curious, go on. Continue reading. Imagine you just met someone and about a week later, she suddenly die. No signs of sickness, no signs of weakness, she just died. And you remember every single bit of the last moments you were with that person. Every little thing that she did, every single word she said to you, her mannerisms, her laugh, her smile. Everything.  "Angah, nanti balik kampung amik jus delima Mak La. Mak La dah tak boleh minum sebab tengah buat chemo. Jus tu bagus, Alos dah minum." Then, she said this to an acquaintance sitting next to her, "Dr cakap, dengan keadaan aku sekarang ni kena banyak sedekah." and even after she died, I have not taken the juice yet. My mom told me yesterday that the bottle of juices were already packed in plastics, waiting to be taken by me. The fact she was so persistent asking me to go back to my hometown ...